scoliosis

went to the hospital on friday. did the usual. took an x-ray, talked to the doctor and yeah. but this is the last. i hope. its confirmed. my surgery's on october 30th. 2 months from now. 2 weeks after the huge exam. am i scared? i dont know. i had a lot of time to get rid of the fear. what i really can say now is...i'm relieved. its been way too long, i cant wait any longer. its enough. all the x-rays, all the appointments, all the waiting. and all the times i couldnt breathe, listening to the lectures. i'm drained. i wana get this over and done with. i wana stop worrying. i dont wana be like this forever.