no one is telling me the speed I should be travelling, so watch me take the lead

I guess I’m always known for being hard on myself when it comes to my education. I’m never good enough for me. Since I was in primary school, it was never good enough if I didn’t get first place, if I didn’t get straight A’s in SPM. Now I’m in university, I’m not good enough until I get at least a DA.

Some people call me ungrateful. Please, I’m not. Trust me, I am grateful that I’ve gone up to where I am. I’m reducing my B’s, although I haven’t gotten rid of that one B last semester, I’m still grateful. I’m a little disappointed that for the third time, I didn’t get into the list, but at the same time, I’m so happy to be this close! I just have to work a little harder.

Yek kept wondering why I do this to myself, even when I’m ahead. Well, it’s never about competition with others. I compete with myself alone. I’m trying to be ahead of myself. I don’t care about anyone else, because what’s the point of being better than someone else but still not moving forward as an individual? I have reasons for everything that I do.

And the reason why I need to be in the list so bad is to secure my place in the main campus for DVM. 

Getting DA means getting your name up on your faculty’s board, and which means getting your name recorded in The System.  A higher chance!

I may have one foot at the door of my dream, but I still need to get my other foot in. That’s the degree talking. Only God knows how hard it is for diploma students to compete with STPM holders and Matriculation students to get into DVM, even when you’re holding a Diploma in Animal Health. The world is a little messed up in this part of Asia.

And that is why you have to work for what you want. Nothing’s ever gonna come falling from the sky without a price.

“You can move as you make from the cradle to the grave, 
it doesn’t matter what they say.”