That one year mark

I remember the first time I saw you when I first got here. I thought you were really nerdy with your glasses tied to your head. I remember when I used to just pass you by like a stranger. You were my bestfriend's coursemate, that Chinese guy that never really smiled. I remember when one of my friends had a huge crush on you and I thought, "What is so sexy about that bald head?" And then I remember when we first talked. It was at the airport and I surprised you when I watched an episode of Walking Dead. I remember when my friend dragged you to Kuching for a week with us. You were shy, but you stuck with me like a puppy. I started noticing you then. I remember when we first hung out, just you and me. I didn't ask you to, but you helped me carry heavy bags of vests. We talked about our childhood that day. I remembered when we first started texting. I went to sleep with a smile on my face every night. And the first time we talked on the phone. I panicked when my phone rang and calmed myself down, "You guys hung out so many times already, just be cool, it's Yek." I remember every day of that one study week, we used to walk and fed the deers. There was a fat deer we named Fatso. And I remember the first time you said I love you. It was the midnight of my birthday. You were the first to call and wish me. And you confessed. My heart raced and I wanted so much to say I love you too. I remember the time you asked. It was that evening we went to feed deers. You had given me my presents and wrote me a poem. And as we walked downhill, you slowly said these words, "Phoebe, I've never been so sure about anything in my life but... will you be my girlfriend?" I giggled and grinned like an idiot. Immediately I said, "Yes!" 


We were such dorks. You made me laugh so much and you made me so happy. Months go by and we have fights every now and then. But you never walked away. You stayed and we always talk things out. And every 19th we would fall in love with each other all over again. The sea kept us away from each other during holidays, but we stayed up all night talking and slept all day.

We dreamed together. We talked about our future. We built our house together and we furnished each of the rooms. We put so much of your Coke in the fridge and I wanted space for my soybean milk and yoghurt drinks. You wouldn't let me have a microwave because you said it would be bad for our brains. But I won that argument. We're getting a microwave!


We talked about our children. What kind of a father you would be. And how I would discipline our kids. How we would let them have amazing childhood.

A few nights ago, we made one year. You gave me an evening of laughs and grins despite having final exams on my birthday. And lastnight we both agreed, that we are our own favourite couple. How could I not love us? I really can't imagine being with anyone else.

You're the only person who can make me laugh until I can't breathe. The only person who can make me feel beautiful. The only person who can make me feel safe and loved.

I love you with all my heart, Lee Jing Yie. 

I can't wait to spend forever with you.