left with no choice

So I was asked to bring three things that I really love, things that are very important to me. Note that these three things should be objects.

I really couldn't think of any. I mean, I don't have a love for objects. I'm not materialistic. I have a love for people, for my family, for children, for animals, and most importantly, for God.

Now, how do I bring these things to the table? Perhaps I could find something that symbolizes each and every one of them. But then, that will bring rise to another problem.

I'd probably be accused of animism, of worshiping objects.

Let's say if I were to put my cross pendant and say, "This symbolizes God."

Everyone in the room would think, "Oh, this poor girl needs help. She worships her necklace!"

Great. I'd even be accused of breaking the first commandment. I wouldn't want that to happen!

Or perhaps I should pretend to be materialistic?

Oh God, no. This is absurd. Why do we need to do this again? I'm probably gonna tell my buddy what I'm bringing. He's gonna know anyway. He'd easily pick them out (I hope).

Till the next BS meeting.

Can't wait to see what's in store for us.

A little prayer

If or when I have children in the future, I really pray none of them have Scoliosis, like I do.

I don't know if I can be as strong as my mum, watching her child go through surgery and thinking he/she is never going to be normal.

I'm too emotionally fragile for that.

And I can't avoid blaming myself for it. I'd drown myself in guilt.

So, please, O Lord, don't punish them.

Amen.

from a new perspective

Hello, there.

So... A friend of a friend of mine stumbled upon my blog and reminded me the existence of it. Yeah, I know I did post a few days ago, but let's face it, the past few posts have been a little out of context. I think I owe this blog a proper post, so here goes.

Life's been great for me so far. I'm now in my second semester and while things are still very laid back, I enjoy myself, nevertheless. Who doesn't like freedom, right?

Speak of freedom, the unnecessary drama that I kept getting caught up with last semester has subsided because, well, a certain someone has decided to ignore me. And you know what? Thank God! Because I'm great at giving cold shoulders and I can assure you that I won't ever freeze first.

On another note, my back has been killing me lately. I hope it's not getting worse because I really don't want to go through another surgery. I told my mum about it and she told me to drink Anlene. Yeah, I bought Anlene and have been drinking every night despite the fact that it's for 19-40 year-olds and I'm only 18, still. I'm getting pretty addicted to milk now. I feel like a bodybuilder who takes protein shakes every morning to stay fit, except in my condition, my spine won't shrink if I don't exercise.

I've met quite a number of new people lately, mostly from the Catholic Student Society. I go to church with these people and it reminds me so much of my youth group back in Kuching. They're the perfect company to keep. Nothing's better than a family in Christ.

We've got many plans in store for this semester and I have to admit, I'm really stoked! Pray nothing will come in the way because I don't want to miss a thing!

Anyway, it appears that I've worn almost every single proper clothing I had in my closet. Really need to do my laundry today and I sure hope the "Sprinkles" in the weather forecast really mean "tiny drops of rain" and not "raining cows and sheep". I'm running out of clothes to wear! Pretty soon I'll have to settle with baju kurung. But of course, I'll talk Reyna into wearing one, too.

Well, I've to go get ready and head to Physics class soon.

Spread love like fire and God bless!

Keep in mind

Remember when I told you not to fall for me because I would break you? I really wasn't kidding.

I told you about him. You know what happened. And you know how much I despised him and how much of a creep I thought he was and still is. I hope you didn't forget that.

I don't want you to turn out like that, too. I don't want to despise you or be creeped out by you. I respect you too much. You're the big brother I've never had.

Yeah, we joke around a lot, but you, out of everyone else, I thought would never take it the wrong way. I really hope you didn't and please, don't.

Who else is going to look out for me if I had to avoid you?

Just a clue

...of what my bipolar heart actually likes.

And I love voices like Josh Golden's.