confessions of a dreamer

They say dreams are only for those who are asleep
I must ask;
What about those who are awake?
What do they do?
They regret, don't they?

I don't want to live in hypocrisy
like the rest of the world
who grow up to hate their lives,
who walk around complaining about their pathetic jobs,
who regret the things they have and have not done
When they were younger,
when they still had time and hope;
slowly slipping and losing grip
But are now too late to gain

I believe life is only as hard as you let it be.
Fight and you will fly,
surrender and you are damned

I wanna save the sick and the homeless,
The weak and the hopeless

I wanna save the animals and trees,
The generation,
The future.

Let the world face no evolution
Let the world face no disaster
I wanna save everyone and everything,
everywhere.

I am too strong of a fighter,
Too big of a dreamer
I have too much to offer
and I will never take no for an answer

Mock me if you must,
But when all hell breaks loose,
I know what I wouldn't be.
I won't be the one crying and falling.
I won't be the one who brought misery to herself.

My battle scars may never fade,
But at least I can live and die
with no regrets.


I actually wrote this last year for a poem writing competition in school. Honestly, I never planned to post it online because it was written in such an angry state (personal issues). But since I decided to have it submitted to the school's magazine this year, I thought "Oh well, there's no harm in posting it on my blog since everyone's gonna read it one way or the other". Besides, my Miri bestfriend have not read it yet ;D

His footprints

I get distracted by you
not to the point that I lose all my senses
I wouldn't even call it a distraction,
really
because you're nothing
of that sort

You're nothing
mean or selfish or arrogant
greed doesn't stir in you
neither does all things sinful

I love how you love me
how you love everyone
and everything
How you would do anything
to save

You bring the word Sacrifice
a whole new meaning
One no one can top

When you say
In every love song, there's a lover
And how you hoped you would be
just that
in my heart

It puts a smile on my face
you can never erase this, Lord

When I look up at the skies
I wonder how you made them blue
I gave up sleep
just to be amazed by you
and you never fail me

You have
what no other boy can take
or steal from me
It is rightfully yours

This love
This faith
This strength
These hands and feet
This heart

You have all of me
and I love you more for that

Gravity

I'm not proud of this
I hope you are
of yourself
You've got me coming back
got me caught in the middle

Funny,
I was always so sure of
everything
Doubts rain over me now
And I don't like this

You're like gravity
I don't like that either

As I led myself away
You tend to grab my hand
stand in the way
look me in the eye
but all I see is false hope
what are you doing?

You lost yourself
in all that pretense
Who are you fooling?
You're taking too long
And I'm tired

Your shoulders aren't
the best pillows
I've seen
Your voice isn't
the best lullaby

It's Thursday
but I'm out of your sight
I'm missing
Get used to it
because I'm done trying
You can never make up your mind

she who screams

my ears are beginning to bleed
what with all of your childish acts
you whine and stomp your feet
as things don't go your way

why would it?
for a person as such
you just wouldn't keep it in
leave that patience running thin
oh, how quick you let things go

and all for what cause?
what do you expect?

attention
you've got it
they all hate to look at you
they curse you under their breaths
their bad intentions
you have them all

satisfaction
you just can't enjoy
that anger leaves you
with an ugly face
were you ever satisfied?

are you happy now?

Update

Hello, people :)
As you can see, I'm back to being poetically possessed.
I'll be writing more poems now. Not all the time, though. And I might not post all of them. I'll try to post some every week, that is if there are any written or worth posted.
Exams are starting soon and by soon, I mean on the 29th!
I'm super busy. It's the year 2010, what do you expect, right?
I'll have about 2 weeks of exams and there's a huge chance I might not be blogging in all that stress. Exam ends on the 14th, I guess, I dont know, gotta check the timetable. Haha!
I'll keep you posted.
In the mean time...

spread love like fire!

if you only knew what your little girl feels

Why is it so hard to swallow?
I was made for chasing dreams
and I'll do just that
your only one
who created her own road
to walk on
Still you hold her back

I kicked and
I pushed my way
through
I see how you go easy on them
I long for that
Acceptance, too

Independent, yes
but I still need you
I cant do everything
all on my own
I'm just a child
I'm your child

Why won't you help me?

you can go now

Soon will it be
a month now
How fine I was
until I started thinking
did I not know?
I miss the person I thought
you were
you could have been
the person you are not


An illusion to believe,
I did
just a speck of dust
formed into perfection
You are
At least that's what I thought


All in darkness
the little girl whispers alone
I miss my old friend
here he is
he stands right next to me
I cant feel him
he's gone

it's amazing how you can give me a heart attack
and heal it in a second with your smile



I wouldn't mind having millions of that...

golden socks

We all (my sis, bro and I) decided to name her Vodka instead.
Dont worry, though. She's not confused.
We never called her by any name before until we were sure of what to name her.
So, Dean is now Vodka!

brand new bears

We got two more puppies! Dad said they were both male, so Kavan and I decided to name them Sam and Dean. Yes, we love Supernatural that much!

It's been almost a week now and dad recently told us that Dean is a girl. Wow, what a surprise. But the name is still sticking!

From left: Dean and Sam

Sam, the all black puppy

Dean, the one with golden socks

After bathing them

....

I do...

This reminds me of Karissa Kara Simon!
Except... She hides them under her bed -.-"

A shock, I deserved

did you feel it coming?
I was slowly getting rid of you
bit by bit
A two-day survival
yesterday could have made it a three
but there you go again

Just one smile
and you're off the hook

You gave me a shock
I deserved

Forgive me
for letting my stupidity take over
giving you what looks like a smug
You caught me by surprise

Do it more often
I'll get the hang of it
I know it for a fact
I will :)

He one spinal cracker

Jonathan "Legacy" Perez

First time I saw this guy auditioned on So You Think You Can Dance, I thought, "Holy kabooki, the dude has gotta be the best B-boy ever"



Like everyone else did, I expected him not to be able to dance other styles. But when I turned on the TV today, this is what I saw!




Amazingly talented, this guy!

In every forest there are trees

Hello, fellow earthlings.

Haha! I've got exams this week. Have been a total geek since Friday. Yes, I practice procrastination. Sue me.

I'm not the study-during-holiday kind of person. Trust me, I've tried. It's just so hard to wake up during the holidays when your room is dark and your bed is so comfy and the weather is cold.

My alarm would scream,

"DONT PATRONIZE! I realize, this is my real life.
I'm half asleep and I'm wide awake..."

Marianas Trench usually wakes me up every morning. It makes me jump whenever Josh Ramsay scream that first verse all of a sudden. But I have become immune to it. So I switched to Skillet. And that was how I woke up at 8.30a.m. this morning. Best record!

I'm not gonna convince myself that I will screw any paper. Thanks to 3sa and her brother's smart choice of book, I've learned that you will become what you believe.

Remember the story of the three blind men in the Bible? They believed that Jesus could heal them and so Jesus said, "According to your faith be it done unto you". They immediately received their sight. Notice that it was their faith that turned the situation around? So, yes, I'm taking that note in and leave the rest to God :)

I shall come back next weekend when the exam is about over (still gotta sit for the Moral paper on the coming Monday). Or maybe I wont come back and update. Who knows... ;) I might just talk to my bed and fall asleep. Hmm... what shall I choose to do?

I personally love this